a faith observed: Simon's still sleeping!

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Simon's still sleeping!

Yeah! Simon keeps sleeping through the night! I couldn't be more thrilled! It feels like I'm suddenly on vacation! It's amazing how nice it is to sleep. That's what I've been doing lots of lately myself. I often fall asleep with Simon at 7:30 pm and the same thing seems to happen when I put him down for his afternoon nap. Andrew finishes school for this year in two weeks and I am very excited about having 3 very relaxed and chilled out months before our baby arrives. Andrew will still be working at the restaurant, but compared to working and studying, it will feel so relaxed. I've been spoiled!!!

And the past week I've begun swimming and today, did a deep water aerobics class. It feels amazing, after almost 5 months of not being able to exercise at all b/c of all my complications. I am happily surprised that I have not lost my fitness and can still swim a mile. The water feels amazing and it really lifts my spirits too. It works well as there is a creche that I can put Simon into while I swim. Tuesday he was happy as can be in the creche but this morning there were, alas, tears.... It was really hard to leave him, but I did and apparently he stopped crying soon after. I am procrastinating with starting him into day care. We think it'd be good to put Simon in 1-2 mornings a week so that once our little girl is here, I will have a few hours with only one! So, I know I need to do get Simon started soon so he'll adjust before baby arrives, but I'm not ready to face the.... tears!

This morning we had a treat (or Simon and Andrew did!). Donuts and OJ for breakfast instead of our usual muesli. It made me think of my dad and my Papa, who both loved donuts and orange juice for breakfast. I love this simple, sweet memories. I have been so blessed with my family.

Well, I'm being summoned to push cars with Simon. Now Simon's putting his cars down my dress. Lots of fun around here, that's for sure.

Exciting News! Simon just used his potty tonight, for the first time! Andrew was getting him ready for his bath and Simon told him he had to go "pee pee". Andrew undressed him, walked out of the room for a sec, and when he returned, Simon had gone in his little toilet! all by himself without any prompting! We were so excited and so was Simon!

1 comment:

Marge said...: Great Pictures....and comments, Liz! And so exciting about the continued sleep and progress in the bathroom department!
Enjoy the sleep while you can! I love you. Mom; September 19, 2009 at 1:51 AM

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This is me, a faith observed.

C.S. Lewis writes about the pain of losing his beloved wife, Joy, in his book, "A Grief Observed". In some ways this is my attempt to share my journey through grief and back into life, as the past nine months have been characterized by an immeasurable longing for my beloved father, who died suddenly this past January.

After months of hibernation from the internet, I unexpectedly find myself able to re-begin this blog and connect with my larger community of family and friends. This blog will likely reflect less of the intensity and depth of my pain and more of the simplicity and ordinary joy that keeps my life full - namely days running after our little boy, Simon Pierre. But it is because of the incredible love and presence that defined my relationship with my father, that I feel I can will myself to not just survive each day but to pour that same kind of love and attention onto Simon.

My father was an endless source of strength to me, a pillar of faith. His last words, spoken to my mother as he passed into that which is unseen, "God is good - good all the time", have remained with me through this dark cloud of grief. And when God seems hidden, when justice seems to be losing out, when life is unfair, and when death swallows up the one I most love, I remember my father's words and breathe in this promise, that the God of love is in the process of restoring that which has been destroyed.

And as my father told me in dream I've had since his death, "Look to Jesus. As a father, to point you towards Him is the best gift I can give to you." So here I am, this is me, a faith to be observed.

I hold onto that which is not always seen- the promise of God's goodness, the hope that one day in the promised new heavens and earth- on a grassy hill or a sand covered beach- the lion and the lamb will lie down side by side and I, too, will lie down side by side, next to my father, and we will laugh and laugh until there are no more tears left to cry.